Trying to get high, I can't deny, the world thinks you're left behind in solitude

Here, I'll tell you what sparks joy, an innumerable amount of things.

But here's one of my most recent encounters with joy, just about 20 mins ago.

There's this thing, this tidy little tool called Spotify, and oh gosh, do I love it, to find new music and rediscover tunes.

Thanks to its trusty algorithm, I'm reunited with a band that I've been following close to 8 years (they're actually 15 years of age currently), Airiel. They have recently released a new album in 2017 and I'm re-starstruck.

Their first song that blessed my ears 8 years ago was In Your Room, and boy, if only I could fathom words to describe the track, ethereal??? Or how about ethereal x10000 times.

I never knew a song could be that long (9:26 mins), and that it could invoke so many emotions.

I kept replaying the song as an emo-ass kid, because I was crazily infatuated with this boy from my CCA.

He made everything seem like a fairytale, there was once when a girl got seriously injured when she was playing catching with her friends - basically, the window pane from the ground floor staircase broke and cut her hand deep, and as first aiders, we had to rush to help. He grabbed my hand, and we ran all the way from the St John's room to the scene of the accident. I didn't even know why my heart was buzzing rapidly - was it from the seriousness of the first aid disaster or from the adrenaline that shot through my bloodstream when we were running while locking hands?

After that, we flirted back and forth during trainings, we went on dates, spent hours at the arcade & cinema, we even performed in an annual dinner whereby we were the main stars of a love skit.

We would text till late at night, and he would handwrite love letters to pass to me during lessons and CCA.

And then the inevitable happened, he lost feelings and started chasing one of my juniors. All hell broke loose cause heartbreak seemed so foreign until that very moment.

The worst feeling that I had experienced in that year was when I saw them on a date at McDonalds, him looking at me and then quickly avoiding my eyes.

But this song, amongst many other songs, got me through the experience, and it also broke way to me falling in love with many other tracks by Airiel.

Looking back, I can't help but laugh at my pubescent self for being so naive, and also really glad that YouTube recommended me that song when I felt like my insides were being crushed like paper.