was it all, anymore, faded after all?

at times, I look back at what transpired between May and June, and can't help but feel crippled with fear

I've never been at such a stage in my life - a crying mess, an uncontrollable insomniac, an overthinking fool

the thought of everything still haunts me from time to time

I thought I experience darkness before, but no, that was truly the worst.

the cold sweats in bed, social anxiety, sleepless nights of overthinking, my brain on overdrive, my body weak from crying all day

I never ever want to be in that bad place anymore.

This was what it was like to be swallowed whole, and grasping onto what bits and pieces I have left of myself

I will not let anyone, not even the love of my life, do this to me again.

I'm no longer going to be the same weak person that anchors her happiness onto the whims of others

not enough colours in the world, thought I would invent some

opened up my world to a special someone this month

I need to stop myself from self-sabotaging situations

do not. poke the. dragon.

kill me softly, your hold on me is something I can’t explain

the saddest of all days

was when you told me all was lost, and I couldn't do anything to fix it

my vision turned to grey, as if the tears clouding my eyes were like a B/W filter

i couldn't help but look at you, i couldn't help but cry into your arms

i couldn't help but envision my life without you, and i felt paralysed with fear

i may never recover from this

that's enough, give me a body I can touch

travel is back!!!

got back from JB last week with 3 pals, but that isn't enough to satiate my suppressed wanderlust

flying to Saigon in a week, I'm especially excited since it has been 2 years since my last flight

my rudimentary itinerary:
- eat banh mi
- eat pho
- eat bun cha
- eat bun thit
- eat hu tieu
- drink coconut coffee from Cong cafe (lifechanging drink I discovered 3 years ago in Vietnam)
- drink all the fucking craft beer (going back to my fav spots such as East West Brewery, Pasteur Street Brewery, plus trying new ones on this trip)
- hit some bars/clubs

it's like covid never even happened

生活有点坎坷

what kind of character development is this?????

put me through hell, then reach out to give me a little breather, but the room around me is still burning

God, this isn't Euphoria

does this story have a happy ending?

what a perfect day for crying

2022 musings

greed got the better of me

clouded my judgement

every single day, I'm paying for my mistake