we never got it right, playing and replaying old conversations, overthinking every word and I hate it

I know this is abrupt, I know it's gonna be explosive, I know that even before it starts, I can already see the end

I know this will break me, perhaps even in more ways than I have ever been broken

I know this is temporal, I know the gratifications are only minute, I know this is being treated as a game

I know

But you know what

I'm still gonna do it