I stumble then I crawl.

Picture post.

Went out a few days ago with Regina on a shopping trip, then shunbian went back to my old workplace to return my uniform and to take pictures with Furuya and You Ming. Then around 10pm went to Starbucks to rest after a tiring day hehe :) (the last photo was from Poh's insta)

Celebrated this Shi Ting's birthday in advanced yesterday :) We cooked pasta and soup and baked mashed potatoes(which were really tough to mash), cheesy omelettes and baked prawns! And then we rented this Jap horror movie titled Sadako which was scary but funny cause it's funny to watch shows with friends. I'm really lazy to elaborate, so bye.

I'm heading for a brave new world.

“We are afraid to care too much, for fear that the other person does not care at all.” — Eleanor Roosevelt

Too true.

Yeah, I'm shooting through space

Went out with Peizhen, Sheryl and Mingzhen today :>
Lucnch > Shop > Dinner > Shop > Home It was a great day, really. Love spending time with them ;)

tired

With christina last night.

It's fading

Today is definitely the worst day of this year. Everything went wrong. On a side note, my maid is back :D

Kill me with words.

Why are people so judgmental?

Can I be close to you?
We all want to make ourselves look better than that other guy or girl. How shameless of us, yet most of this isn't up to us, we all judge people subconsciously. People that claim that they don't judge people probably just manage to contain them much more successfully than those that just blabber on about someone they had just met.
Intriguing.
“The more one judges, the less one loves.” ― Honoré de Balzac, Physiologie Du Mariage

I'm not perfect but I swear I'm perfect for you

It's currently... 4.32AM and it's raining quite heavily in Pasir Ris.

Had read something that bothered me recently, so I really have no mood to go to bed. I think I'm turning into an owl, the earliest I'm sleeping these days is 3.30AM. My body clock is screwed big time.

So...to keep myself to not think about negative things, I'm busying myself with art. HAHA ok maybe it's just some simple handicraft, I'm no Picasso or anything. I've cried too many times today.
OKKKKK, back to art & craft.

I'll never be the same.

How queer, to feel lonely in a place full of people.

Love Somebody
- Maroon 5

You better run, better run, faster than my bullet.

Hihihi, seeing that my last few blog posts had so much words but no pictures, I've decided to upload all the pictures that were taken over the last two weeks :) Damn lazy but I'll add a description to each one.

Ate midnight supper with Sheryl and Mingzhen hehehe :)

4Charity barbecue at ECP ;) Got more pics but they're with bets and poh :<

Les Miserables with Regina and Christina, really good movie!

Furuya san!!! Really cute baker from juchheim

Mr. Santa Claus

FELICIAAAAA

CLARA :D

Sylvana!

Gemma!

DAMN GOOD MATCHA HOT BROWNIE THING

All the food. The leftovers. Ok so all these were taken at the company dinner. We went to some Jap restaurant inside a hotel to dine at and we could order whatever we wanted hahahah. So all of us took advantage of it. We ordered sashimi, cocktails, Jap beers, sake, a lot of food lah. And I love the froth on top of the sapporo beer, damn niceee. The bill was.. a few thousands.

Was 'drowning sorrows' with this belinda right after the release of the O levels results. We ate frozen yogurt, drank frappes, ate sushi to make the pain go away HAHAH.

Ate at the soup spoon with Betty and Belinda :) Before that, we went to TPJC to like see-see. Well, that would most likely be my future school unless God has something else planned for me.

She's getting very fat, like a fat ball of fur.

I wish I know how to quit you.

Just submitted my 12 choices, bless them oh Lord. Gonna end work soon on the 25th January and yea, think I'm gonna start school in February? If I get in. Can't believe time passes so fast, gosh, I'm not anything now, just a graduate from secondary school. And soon I'll be in another school, an absolute foreign place where I may not know anyone at first. This thought makes me feel paranoid and nervous, what if I don't fit in? What if I can't cope? What if I... you get me. A more in-depth post in a few days, bye.

JC it is, not a very good JC, but a college nonetheless. Gonna have to make my mark within the next 2 years.

Tonight I've fallen

I don't know what should I feel right now. What should I do? Who should I listen to? What to do for the rest of my life? Collected my O level results today. It felt so surreal and weird, like I'm finally growing up. Four/five years of secondary school education for just this one ticket to your future. And I've got my ticket, yet my destination is unknown. I guess I got what I deserved, I was quite complacent with my studies, only starting to put in real effort during July/August. I wanted more, you know, to be on par or at least a bit behind my sisters but right now, my path is way off. My parents strongly believe in good education, always wanting the best resources for their kids, hence they don't mind paying huge sums of money on books and tuition. Both of my sisters entered Temasek Junior College. I can't even enter Meridian, that's how off I am. I know my mother is sad even though she told me that I did well. And I just really don't know what to do right now. ...damn.
Should I go to SP, which is 22 MRT stops away or TPJC, which is not really a good JC but a JC nonetheless and work my ass off for the next 2 years? I'm a person that is easily weighed down by a bit of pressure, so it's either I change my repulsive attitude and laziness or I choose to go to poly. I don't know, after getting my results, I feel that I must be more independent and strong, and not flimsy and indecisive. Once I've made my choice, I've got to stick with it and stay on track. Never to run out of the path or to lag behind. Be consistent and increase my speed to overtake the rest. That's what I should do... but can I even do it? I need a chance.
God answered half my prayers and I'm thankful for that. But for the other half, I'll have to do my best to achieve it.
I want to get into a local uni, not a private and overseas one, not because I'm biased but just trying to be pragmatic. The difference between a diploma and a degree is a lot, the difference can be a few thousands. The difference between a degree from a non-local uni and a local uni is also big. I want to have a steady job and good future. I want to be able to support my family and my children(if I plan to have them) I want to own a house, and not depend on my parents or my spouse.
Even if I choose the poly route, it'll be hard to enter uni, only the top 5% can get that opportunity. Yet even if I take the JC path, it isn't a guarantee that I can get into uni, although the chances are higher. A levels is gonna be a tough cake to sink my teeth into.
Life is hard in Singapore. Very hard.

But if it keeps you around then I'm down.

4 days. I don't think I've ever felt so nervous and worried before.
There's this uncertainty and insecurity in me, and not to mention all the 'what if?'s.
I don't want to cry again. I cried after getting my PSLE result slip and I don't want history to repeat.

God, my life is in your hands.

I wear my heart upon my sleeve like a big deal.

Headed out with my lovely 4 today to raffles city to eat and shop.
Heheheh we dined at The Pizza Place and it was really filling.

HAHAHA ANYWAY ME AND SHI TING WERE PLAYING THIS GAME WHERE BOTH OF US WOULD GO TO A SHOP AND TRY ON THE MOST AUNTY CLOTHES TOGETHER, hehehe very funny! 

Then we just keep anyhow posing and taking pictures. I kept laughing until I felt like peeing hahahaha damn funny to look at them.

Reached home at around 10 plus, v. entertaining day ;) but we didn't take a group pix ):