2012

3 more days to the end of 2012. Oh, and I'd finished reading The Perks of Being a Wallflower yesterday! :) Really nice, and the movie had actually done justice to the book. And just came back from a nice outing with Poh, Chu and Channie. Pictures when I'm not feeling lazy.

we won't

Just finished watching Perks of Being A Wallflower on Funshion, I know I'm slow! But that film was so beautiful, so genuine and provocative.

“I don’t know if I will have the time to write any more letters, because I might be too busy trying to participate. So, if this does end up being the last letter, I just want you to know that I was in a bad place before I started high school, and you helped me. Even if you didn’t know what I was talking about, or know someone who’s gone through it, you made me not feel alone. Because I know there are people who say all these things don’t happen. And there are people who forget what it’s like to be sixteen when they turn seventeen. I know these will all be stories some day, and our pictures will become old photographs. We all become somebody’s mom or dad. But right now, these moments are not stories. This is happening. I am here, and I am looking at her. And she is so beautiful. I can see it. This one moment when you know you’re not a sad story. You are alive. And you stand up and see the lights on the buildings and everything that makes you wonder. And you’re listening to that song, and that drive with the people who you love most in this world. And in this moment, I swear, we are infinite.” ― Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower

The film is actually an adaptation of the novel of the same name and I'm thinking of purchasing the book Haven't read in awhile and I kind of miss reading. Y'know, just sit in a comfortable position and get all soaked in into a good book while drinking tea or something. I want a small library in my future house containing shelves of good books and a cosy corner with a small coffee table and matching chairs. My kids will be bookworms and read real books, not some e-book on an iPad or a Kindle!!!!! Goodbye :)

Chink in the armour

Have been really busy with work lately so yea, this is my daily routine:
Wake up
Bathe
Watch some shows
Get prepared
Leave house and take the MRT all the way to Somerset then walk to Takashimaya
Go to the backroom and check in before changing into my uniform
Fold boxes, paste stickers, tie ribbons on boxes, explain to the customers about the cake, take pre orders, handle the cash register,  pack the cakes and cookies into paper bags
Go for my break
Go back to work
Closing
Take the mrt back home
Watch a few more shows
Sleep

And the cycle repeats.

And last night our sales hit damn high and esther was leaving so my boss treated us to ramen and drinks, and the ramen quite ex, like $17 per bowl. Then after that me, chu and esther went to eat dessert and had drinks before we flagged down a cab at 3am to go home.

If everyone cared and nobody cried, if everyone loved and nobody lied, if everyone shared and swallowed their pride, then we'd see the day when nobody died. -Nickelback

Sometimes I feel sad for all the wrong reasons, I should just embrace the fact that not all is lost.

Take it back before it all went wrong

Hey, it's 2 in the morning and i can't sleep so just gonna do a quick blog post. 
So, prom was over and it was great :D thank goodness I went.
And I've just changed my phone from an iPhone 4 to a Samsung Note 2 and it doesn't disappoint! :) nice big screen with good functions.
Oh yea and I've started working, in fact, tomorrow will be my sixth day at work at Juchhiem, Takashimaya Orchard.
Hehehe work is fun because I have Betty,  Regina and Chuthong as my coworkers :) And the other staff are really nice and funny, it's really comfortable to work there although the pay is quite average. But it's my first job so yeah I wanna do well in it :D
Shall unprivate this site soon ;)

memories cut like a knife.

I feel so tempted to unprivate this blog so that the people that I want to share my thoughts with can read them, yet I don't want to share my private feelings and thoughts with the web. Just broke camp about a couple of hours ago, and I'm not sure whether I should considered it good or bad. Good because I got to spend time with people that I love, or bad because the time spent with them were far too little. I know, I know, things change. Every fucking thing will change someday, somehow. Sometimes, I'd feel really bored/stressed/have a lot of drama in a period of time and I would constantly tell myself that things would change and be different. But you know what? After a month, a year, a few years, I'd look back and think, "Hey, it wasn't so bad after all. In fact, I wouldn't mind trading anything in the world to get to relive that moment again." Just like how I wouldn't mind paying thousands of dollars or trading another happy moment for another day as a lower sec student, where we were always bombarded with immature actions and unnecessary drama, or as a primary school kid, where life was simple, listen in class, wait for recess, gulp down some food during recess before heading to the field to play soccer, or going to the back of classrooms to play with beyblade erasers or even gathering with classmates to play Crazy Cups(yes we were all mad about it during P3-P4), or even a Saturday training last year where we would feel so sleepy while memorising FA, or feel demoralised when we get reprimanded by the officers for not doing things right. And this is because I miss the people. I miss my primary school friends, my lower sec class mates, team mates. Heck, even if I get to see them on a daily basis, we all secretly know inside that things have changed, the playing field has changed. We won't ever be that close again. And that was how I felt throughout the camp. Sure, they're there, but wait, they're not the same. we're not as close as before. I know, deep down inside, even though I hate to admit it, that we would all continue to drift apart even further next year, where everyone would embark on different journeys and get to meet new people, and yeah, become hi-bye friends? Oh, reality IS such a bitch. I just want them to all know, that I would always be there, but I know, not all of them will think the same. That's why I couldn't help but shed a tear during CP, that's why my tear glands got activated when we said our goodbyes today and when we hugged and went our separate ways. It just sucks to be me.

No. It's going to be over soon, girl. Just pull through and you can say goodbye to it forever.

Hahehohuhi

Freaking wanna go USS ):

Everybody's starry eyed.

Your actions cut me like a knife.

I know.

Like a hard candy with a surprise centre.
How do I get better when I had the best?

I know. I know what my heart wants. And I know, that it will never get what it wants. I keep looking at that photo. The photos. No, no, no. No more mistakes.
In your eyes, I'd like to stay.

HEYZZZZ

Hi. Omg I know I'm not supposed to blog during the O level period but, yeaaaaaaaa. Nobody's gonna see this anyway since I've private-ed it.

F la. I really DK what to do for A maths. Failed it last year, then this year MYE got like 51 and prelims 50.
I really suck at it, and the paper's just three days away... I'm hoping for at least a C5, pathetic right? But better than a F grade.

And Chemistry. Idk what to do with you!!! I want at least a B3 please ): you are always so confusing but at least you're better than A maths.

HUMANITIES!!!! I USED TO LOVE YOU. Maybe I still love you guys but I don't live you guys like I did before. I WILL TRY MY BEST TO MEMORISE ALL SEQs. But SBQs....that's the killer. Please, inference & cross-ref skills, be at the peak while I'm doing my papers ):

And of course, dear Father in heaven, please give me guidance.

AAL IZZ WELL.

Tonight, I feel invincible.

The time is not ripe, I don't want to get into anything serious.

Just live life and be happy. I don't even want to have too much money in the future, just the warmth from my friends and family and maybe a special someone. Only I can give myself happiness, by making the correct decisions and not getting misled to walk on the wrong path.

There's nothing that's left to fear.

Seventeen days

Yes that's right. Have to buck all the way up.

He was the heart in the heartbreak.

Hi, so many things happened lately! Good things I guessed :)[EXCEPT FOR PRELIMS]
Collected the cca award thing on Friday with cca mates, aww man, I miss them all!!!! Then at night went to buy present with Peezack.

Then Saturday, went for steamboat at pz house to celebrate Phua's birthday!! :D super fun day, I pulled out intestines from prawns, chopped mushrooms and sliced tofu and cut away fats from beef!

Don't make a sound.

My prelim results are gonna suck hard. Worser than mid years I think.

Reading 50 shades of grey. Ok now I know what all the commotion over this book is all about. This book is very STRANGE yet addictive.

Time's flying by.

Whaaaaat? It's already the last day of the september holidays? Feels like a school week cause we had to go back to school on some days ._.

I am really bad at A maths and Chemistry. REALLY. And every time I try to practice, I'll just feel like giving up because I know I am unable to do it... This sucks, O levels are approaching, and I still can't pass?

God, please light a way for me to walk, I'm getting lost in the forest and I need some guidance ):

O levels.

Just sat for EL O levels oral yesterday and I think I really messed up my conversation segment...
I THINK I DIDN'T CITE ENOUGH EXAMPLES AND SHARE PERSONAL EXPERIENCES OH SHIIIIIIT.
And everyone keep saying that oral was ok so that makes me feel worse! ):
But what is done can't be undone, so...I hope the compre won't be so hard.

And I got back my Chinese O level results today, and I am happy! Yesterday, Goh Lin Choo told us that every year got around 40 people get C and I was damn scared it would be me and I couldn't sleep well last night.
But I did better than that, and I just want to praise the Lord, Hallelujah!
To others, my grade would have been unsatisfactory, but to me, it's a miracle.
I am just glad my work paid off, I wrote lots of Chinese notes, read plenty of compos and practised a lot for Chinese convo and I got an ok mark ;)

Make it.

Hiiiiiiiii.
Watched Brave last week during National Day celebrations with Chu and Pingu ;3
It was ok I guess, the movie very cute !

It's in the water

Celebrated this penguin Betty's birthday last night at swensens!

To say goodbye

Went to Ngee Ann poly on sunday for nat comps and watched them compete :)
Hehehe good day because I love my cca ah! And the juniors very cute but sick.

Stars to get by.

I'll get back to you, God knows I try,
but I still lose.

So, went to the mission talk held by the school yesterday and it was good. I don't really know what's the point of it but it was fun and enriching. 3 people were talking about different moments of their lives, in NS, secondary school friends, what they didn't like about themselves and paradigms.
Yeaaaa that's basically everything and we played some games too? Everyone was really enthu and we also sang songs x)

Then at the end, they gave us a card with some words and a heart shaped paper where we were supposed to write to one person in the room that:
1)we see all the time but don't really know them
2)a friend that we have lost contact with
3)a friend that was close to you but due to some misunderstandings, you and her drifted apart

Yaa, so I wrote two cards to 2 people and I got 2 cards too :)
and 4 hugs

You are the light.

Deeper into an abyss, no point screaming, no point flaring your arms, cause it's here to get you, and it won't fail this time round.
No one will ever know.

Maybe I'm not leaving, maybe I'm going home.

Yes, I get jealous.
Jealous that we're no longer close friends, but there's nothing I can do since you'll always choose them over me.

Oh well

SS mock exam was alright? Except for sbq ): totally stumped, and it was so tempting to fall asleep during the paper!

Anyway, number 4 has given something that made me happy!
though it has been more than a year, I still love the whole band of us! Even though they have new people and forgot about us, this is a thing I will never forget.

You know when you know it.

what's
无声地哭, 模糊又清楚.
昨晚, 我躺在床上, 想起了以前所发生的事, 然后突然发觉, 现在再也不能像以前那样了, 所以再黑暗里面勇敢地哭.
Just want to talk to you, that's all I'm asking for..

up?

Sup bruhz

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!

Yo I baked bread, it looks good but it's damn hard on the outside and soft inside :s


Ok I will just post some other pics.
We were at www for like 7hours then after that ate at Seoul garden for dinner.
I am very hungry my maid is having off day today ):

Hais

F I damn sad. I regretted.
I think and think and think and can't help but regret.. Don't think the chance will ever come by again. Fudge. I fudging regretted.

This feeling of regret was magnified yesterday.

This is so perfect & dreamlike. PLAY THIS AT MY FUNERAL.

Pehpeh

Heyyyy, I'm screwed for Chinese Os. Don't even think I can manage a B...
HAIS.

Anywayyyyy had English oral just now, it was quite.. ok cause i didn't really take it seriously !

After oral went to pass sjab uniform to pz then after that walkwalkwalk until she ask me want to go Hq to buy stuff then I was like ok ): cause damn boring if I stay at home ahhhhh
Bought the ranks then met Sheryl then we decided to eat at Astons, mmmmm yum yum steak !!!

Then talktalktalk a lot !!! Made me miss last time omg sec three. I like those times even though they were tough cause in between we all had fun and were so close to each other and we won the cups together! ):
Now no more already.

AFTER LIKE TWO HOURS, TOOK MRT BACK TO PASIR RIS THEN THEY WENT BACK TO SCHOOL WHILE I WENT HOME.

How I wished the other two came along too ):

Why leh.

I just want someone that will stay for a very long time. Not people that come and go. Someone who can really keep secrets and give good advice.
一位充满信心的人


Improseeebruuuu.

华文O水准

糟糕了, 十天后就是我的华文O水准, 而这不是什么好消息. 我很少用华语来和别人沟通, 所以水平很烂! 怎么办?!

Umm, 这次的MYE成绩也是非常差呀!
我看到周围的朋友都考得那么好, 就觉得十分丧失??

English B4
Chinese B4
Biology A1
Chemistry C6
Maths A1
A maths C6
Elective C5

有很多朋友为了安慰我, 就会说"Aiya at least you got pass right"

如果你只是及格, 取了C grade, 会不会觉得高兴呢? 这都怪我自己没用功, 没尽力地作答问卷.


我真失败...

[谢谢牛:)]

Sup yo

HAHAHA YAY EXAMS FINALLY OVER AHHHH.

So, yesterday after bio paper 2, went to watch The Avengers with Reg & Chris! OMGWHATTHEFAT, it was freaking awesome :D hehehehe like all the superheroes come together and save the world ~
I really like Iron man and the Hulk ! And Loki too even though he is the bad guy. It's like his evilness is very cute and so is his evil smile ! ^^

Then today, watched Dark Shadows with them again ! Ok at first I thought it would be a not bad movie but BAAAM! It's actually very good ! Funny, but sometimes dark, creepy and violent. Johnny Depp acted as the vampire until very bagus ! And Eva Green the witch is super sexy :D It's damn funny when they have sex.
After movie went bowling and

Kthxbai

Verta

This is not going to be good .___.

Pink floyd

It's true that girls prefer the bad boys, and nice guys finish last. Why ? Bad boys are daring, compulsive at times but they are brave. And bravery is an attractive trait. But some nice guys lack that trait, and nobody, NOBODY likes a coward.

You won't feel a thing.

OIIIIII, walao I miss doing CPR.
People who didn't go through what I went through will never understand why I miss it. Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahah wtf I serious miss compressing the dummy and blowing into the mouth omgwthbbq. The dummies are like my good friends cause I kissed them a lot of times yay ! :)

K BAIS.

This trophy is like my 宝贝!

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BITCH, I'M SO TIRED RIGHT NAO.

Flashmob finale !

HELLO EVARIBADEY. Haven't been here for quite some time :s

AND LAST NIGHT WAS FREAKING AWESOME AND COOL :D
So, we had to go TJC for the flashmob performance, and yeah, GUESS WHO WON! We were supposed to have like 40 people but like only 21 people came, and the rest missed out the fun.

K at first supposed to meet this belinda at 6pm at her house bus stop at bedok then she suddenly said meet at 5:30, omg then I was rushing like mad !!! RAN TO MRT, then alighted at Tanah merah and chiong to catch the bus then in the end she say can meet later ! Walao some more it was super mad hot.

So we walked from her house to TJC, and we met the rest at the gate there :)
Entered the school and practised our dance moves for awhile hehehehe then after that all of us spammed photos and explored TJ. I swear it was damn cool there !

They were having this once every two years festival called Mardi Gras where the students are supposed to follow the theme and dressed accordingly and it was Circus HAHAHAHA but got like people dressed in cosplay, mario, pacman, witches, leopard man(?), peterpan etc etc !!! Like all of them dressed in many different cool outfits :D took pictures with some of them cause, they damn cute !

So after we performed, me, Jaden and Jasper went to find the place where they sold KOI. That's right, they sold koi ! And subway cookies and 老伴beancurd and Pepsi/rootbeer/coke vanilla float and they were all quite cheap! The float like $1, cookie $0.50, and the rest I not sure.

OMG AND WE SAW TWO CONCERTS THERE ! Like the first one was by some band called Hubbabubbas and the girl lead singer's voice was so beautiful ehh, it sorts of like makes you feel dreamy and light(HAHA WDF)
Then got another band performed Super Bass and Jessie J's Price tag. Then zikai kept saying the guy can rap damn well LOL! Aiya anyway I like the atmosphere, it's like damn party- and it just makes you wanna break out in a dance.

After that we super thirsty and went to buy floats. The person damn nice lehh, actually only can use the coupons to buy and each coupon is like $10($7 entry fee & $3 food coupon) but they sold us their coupons and we bought floats with them :D YEA, then we walked all along their field, and I saw Yunyu Glenn and Leon! They were dressed as cowboys and the yellow mario guy, is it Wario or smth ?? And I took pics with them ^^

Then after that we ran back to the place we performed to see who is the winner of the I don't I won't competition and it was HSC ! We won like $300 then everybody was cheering and screaming like crazy ! Now I have a bit of sorethroat ): Then we sang along to a lot of songs like One Thing and Break even hehehe :) I DIDNT REGRET GOING !

After that me, Sarah, Eunice, Jaden, Winson, Wani and Daniel went to the TJC field where there was this beatbox ing and belly dancing performance HAHA. It was like around 8:30pm then we were lying on the grass and looking at the sky ! Got like 4 stars and 2 satellites (ok my friend actually told me this last time. He said that stars actually twinkle and those 'stars' that just shine very brightly and don't twinkle are actually satellites) so now I know which is which :) then we anyhow dance and Wani zikai Winson did baby freeze ! Which I can't do..cause my arm muscles.. ):

Yeah then approx 9:10pm we left TJC and all of us took bus 12 tgt except for Eu. We were all like quite sad to leave that place cause we really had FUN sia )':


Yeaaa then alighted the same stop with Wani, Winson and Daniel then Wani went home straight while Winson took 359 and me and dan took 39! And I made Daniel join twitter before I alighted the bus HAHAHAHA.
K reached home like 10 plus then bathed and zzzzzzzzzz.

TJ like damn nice school sia...but it's freaking hard to get in. Both my sis went there but I doubt I can make it there haish ): HOKAY BAIS

BOSSSSSSSSSSS

Idgaf

It's approaching, that's right. I can already can see its headlights.

真/假

When everything isn't working out, everything you do just makes things worse, that is when you'll do anything that you think will help, no matter how ridiculous it is.

Desperation.

Eyes open

DAMN IT, those fan-made Hunger Games scenes on YouTube are just absolutely amazing, will forever love THG :)) Listening to the soundtrack now... BEAUTIFUL.

Had Chinese today, and some author that wrote the book that every sec 4 has to read came and visited us ! Thought it was gonna fking boring at first, but it turned out to be interesting !

The author recounted many of her adventures in different countries and told us a lot of stories. She damn lucky sia, went to over 90+++ countries !

K anyway she was one cool person and I even got her to autograph my book and take a picture with her hahahahah.

After Chinese, went for breakfast at KFC with Mingzhen ! Yumyumyum, ate and chatchat a lot ! Was reminiscing the good times last year COMP

Hahahaha was kinda missing all the stuff and laughing at all the silly times and stuff we did Like before we were "forced" to join at Elaine Wong's house, the many trainings we came late and got scolded for, breakfast/lunch/dinner/supper with the crew, many times we went HQ for HN trainings, the dark hall and the face in the window, the nurses, sweeping floor + cleaning windows during HN, crying in the toilet, Sheryl nose bleeding, countless of times we got scolded for various things, doing case and fd, sinma etc The point is, there were plenty of memories and we all had fun and missed it but we know one thing for sure, things will never be the same again. Yup. They already have a new team and stuff, and had forgotten about us and are concentrating on the big C so.. just wish I can burn away those memories. We aren't a team anymore, just five separate individuals. Yep.

BYE

THG

Helloooooo, finally watched The Hunger Games yesterday :D It was quite a long movie, and quite an amount of parts were actually missed out and some were changed... but it was still good :D Goshhh I want the mockingjay pin so much, where do they sell them ? ):


SO, yesterday was HSCS X-country. Yea so it was held at Pasir Ris Park, waaah the grass super gross and muddy .___. Luckily Anu was nice enough to share her damn big raincoat ! :) Aiya, so went for the mass run with Betty, WAAAHH MAGOR REGRETTED ! She was complaining the whole time !! ):<

"Melissa why you walk so fast"
"Wait first~~~"
"I'm damn tired, look at the speed I'm walking at"

!!!!! So we ended up walking and I had to DRAG her the whole time, super xinku can ...

Then after mass run, me and Jodie were like walking randomly up and down the beach hahaa. It was super polluted can, like a lot of trash lying on the shore.

Hehe :)

Gay pose with Jod&Bellebelle

Then after the whole event, took some damn "cool" pix sioooooooll

K the others too gay to post :X

Then we (chuthongz + poh) went to JustAcia to eat, just nice sat beside Amanda Belle gang. Chat eat gossip chat eat gossip chat eat gossip then after that Joanne come LOL, she damn crazy, told us a lot of retarded but funny stuff !

Then at around 1:35 paid the bill, we met up with Betty, collected the popcorn and drink and went inside the theatre to watch THG. Belinda came in like 10mins later. Oh goshhhhhh, still feel excited even though the movie's over !

After that went WS with Belinda the birthday girl !

Happy sixth birthday noob ! :)