I'll drink another drink so I don't have to think, think anymore

honey, in so many ways, you complete me

and in so many ways, I'll do my best to hold you dear to my heart.

the illusion that it's there, so much promise in the air

I'm still taking awhile to internalise everything that has happened in the past week

these few days share a common theme of emotions - guilt, helplessness, regret and...how should I put it? Lack of closure?

I'm sorry for convincing you guys to join us, with promises of better prospects in SG, I'm sorry for hiring you guys, I'm sorry we had to put you guys on mandatory no pay leave, I'm sorry that you guys have to be repatriated back to your home countries.

/separate note/

Ah Gong, 请原谅我. 我很感激你,谢谢你所有的牺牲,把我们带大. 我会在天堂见你.

to everyone else, please just give me a break from life

sometimes we laugh and sometimes we cry, but I guess you know now

feeling kind of frustrated to get such a treatment after slogging it out for almost 2 years

so they decided to allow others to leave without facing any penalty yet when it came to my case, they decided to use me as a precedent and "warning" to others, making me cough up cash to repay them

thank you for opening my eyes

I was blindly loyal to an instituition for so long, not realising how my blood, sweat and tears will never be reciprocated

so long

and it's not the drugs, and it's not the weather, I just feel so much better today

here's to new beginnings

cutting toxicity away, it has been a festering tumour eating my insides away

the transient nature of loyalty, is something to be celebrated about especially if it has been blind loyalty

I just feel so much better today

wishing you could stay now

https://discreetkisses.tumblr.com/post/625451614457806848/emmanuelleriva-happy-together-%E6%98%A5%E5%85%89%E4%B9%8D%E6%B4%A9-1997-dir

yeah I'm the king of second chances and one more tries

it's unnerving to think about it, it's not like I want to, but what do I do when it enters my brain from time to time?