you know, my thoughts are running loose, it's just a thing you make me do

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don’t you take me for a fool, in this game, I own the rules

wiped my slate clean, polished the insides of my brain

singularity has opened my eyes

I'm ready to just focus on myself

and this trip has been great so far

thank you



tell me, is it true that everyone that enters the scene is here solely for the short-haul, telling me things that make my heart go dizzy, before fking me over a thousand times

but it might take a hundred sleepless nights to make the memories of you disappear

new adventure starts tomorrow, and I'm diving in headfirst

see you on the other side

fuck your feelings, truth is only hearsay, we're just left to decay, modernity has failed us

so many chances but the fog was too heavy, how could our visions be so clear yet clouded concurrently, I don’t think anyone was ready to leap and make first blood, but fire was blazing in the bloodstreams and we evidently wanted more than just the ordinary

saw the pictures on the wall - this way, they live

the best of us fall down sometimes, if you haven't been paying attention, the universe doesn't make sense

and you'd be able to apply Murphy's Law to virtually anything

but that's the whole point of it all - who wants to do the possible, when they can break boundaries and be championing a novel idea

who wants stability in the long run when it just leads to boredom and decomposed lives

who wants all the good things in life when it's the bad that makes us better

who wants...

well I wished you had not died

I would have gladly taken your place

so that you could enjoy your final years

making merry, spending time with family

playing mahjong, going through the entire 24-pack cans of beer

bickering with Grandpa, then having long chats by the pool



when I was hitting the road and traversing Eastern Europe, I looked up at the sky

and it was as if I'd caught a glimpse of the gateway to heaven

was it you calling out to me, was it God telling me that home is here

was it? was it? was it?

so I twist and turn, but here am I in my little bubble

not trying to say I'm tired of this earth, but yes I'm tired of this earth

are we all destined to work 9 to 6 jobs and return home feeling exhausted, only to repeat it again the very next day?

I'm desperate for new experiences, new sights, new sounds, new smells

take me out of here and bring me somewhere distant

and tell me there's a possibility of never having to be a cliché in this shit town

No one wants it to happen to you

"The gaps may be closed
The visible escape
Just a blur
The cold tap of the facts
You realise
We live in the dark
We do what we can
The rest is up to chance
And no one wants it to happen to you"

                                                                                 -Small Black



Realised I did not have any sort of mixer at home, so I had to compromise

And then a thought flashed through my mind, no amount of compromise will ever bring me back to the carefree days of my exchange in Europe...

It was like an extended dream...and the nightmare was having to wake up

I wanna peer over the edge and see in death if we are always the same

Welcome to reality - when you’ve reached the peak of happiness and freedom, watch out for the rollercoaster drop that propels you down a chute all the way to the bottom.

And do not expect a soft landing, your fall will be fast and hard, and the sound of your body making contact with the ground will resonate with such tremendous brilliance - you’ll start to question yourself.

The spinning top scene from Inception will pop into mind, was it merely a dream all along?

With your neck craning for a breath of air to inflate your punctured lungs, a wide grin will appear on your bloodied face - dream or not, you’re happy about it, because it was the best thing that has ever happened to you.

Thank you GEM Explorer.

See you in 14 hours, Singapore.