I like it when you sleep, for you are so beautiful yet so unaware of it.

Greetings. Just about a week ago, I was deadbeat from doing nothing but this time around, I'm a 100% burnt-out thanks to work.

Yes, I'm finally working again. Though I'm not quite sure if it's still something to rejoice about. Anyway, this job opportunity came out abruptly and well, I think what was running through my mind at that time was, "anything ah, just work lor".

(last) Tuesday

Went out for dinz at Chock Full of Beans with them homies. We were supposed to act like it was just one of our usual catch-up sessions when actually, we wanted to celebrate Emily's birthday :)

Left house late and literally ran from my house all the way to the bus stop just to catch 109 to go to Changi.

Thought I would be the late one but whaddaya know, whenever I'm with them, there's always people that will be later than me haha.

Waited around 45mins ++ for the rest with Emily so we went on a cat-hunting adventure. Old Changi is full of kitty cats omg!!!!



We decided to name ourselves "The Pussy Hunters" ;)





I wanna bring you home but my mum will kill me.


Depressing, but true.




Their latte art is still on point even after a year.


I'd never get sick of smoked salmon.




Mission accomplished :))

The 6 of us hopped onto the same bus home after late dinner, just like the young us when we were still in lower sec awwwww.

Friday

Watched Fast 7 with Betsyyyyy, been watching Fast and Furious every time since Sec 3 with her so it's kind of like a ritual now?

Gosh the movie was so good, and so sad cause of Paul. Kudos to the team and his two younger brothers who acted in his place. Seriously man, the CGI was so realistic, it's as if they brought him alive to shoot the remaining of the film.

Fast and Furious will always be my childhood thing, think I was like P4 when I first watched Tokyo Drift and I was HOOKED. Watched the remaining prequels and continued following the series after Fast 4, 5, 6 and 7 were released.

Long live the franchise!

Saturday

Went for interview in the morning and then headed to meet Shi Ting and Char. This ST is so full of shit HAHAH she was so late and once we demanded a reason for her missing presence, she told us that she "got carried away while doing housework."

hahaha what a lousy excuse!


Tian Kee & Co, been wanting to go here since last year.

10/10 for rustic, old school feels :) It used to be a furniture shop before the new owners converted it into a cafe.


Food was good too(smoked salmon underneath the egg again)

But I love the drinks more, their Peppermint Iced Chocolate was soooo delish, was recommended to get the iced version instead of the hot one by the cashier because he insisted that it simply tasted way better.


Char's Nuts About You (Nutella with steamed fresh milk)


Their pastel rainbow cheesecake is a must-try! Not only pretty to look at, but it also tastes great, I love the base so much.

After fattening ourselves up, we decided to catch a movie but all the timings in the Central area were quite shitty so we had little choice but to take the train all the way to Tamp.


Hipster shot

Caught The Longest Ride and Clint Eastwood's son was acting in it!!! His nicely chiseled face and deep eyes are so dreamy.

The movie was not bad, albeit being a romantic one, it was constructed in a way that two stories, one in the present and another in the past, were beautifully strung together.

Yeah you should watch it if you like Nicholas Sparks' book-turned-into-a-movie kind of thing!

So after spending like so much money, I felt really guilty and decided to look for a job with Kathy. We went online to look for a job and went for an interview with a recruiting agency the next day. Then, Yiting suddenly notified her that her office job wanted to hire more admin staff so we shunbian went for a second interview in that afternoon and guess what, we were immediately hired and were to start work on the very next day.

They must have been pretty desperate. Yea so that's how I got a job, but it's quite sian sigh, makes me reconsider everything in life.

In the future, I don't think I want a desk job, although it's very unlikely to not have a desk job if you wanna earn a decent income these days.

Perhaps it's only the way this particular company runs that makes me dread working in the future. I mean, an office is supposed to be noisy right?

To be bustling with activity and to be filled with noises instead of silence. This place I'm working at is even quieter than a cemetery. At night, you could still hear crickets and some night creatures making noises in a cemetery but over here, I can hear the sound of the slightest shuffle made by the person sitting across the room at the other end. It's kind of scary in a way and sort of driving me insane.

But other than that, everyone has been pretty nice to us. I can tell that all of the perm staff are really good-hearted people but perhaps they might be shy or something or maybe they're trying to be "professional" so they avoid talking unless absolutely necessary.

After one of the tiring nights of working, the three of us went out for dinner at this restaurant directly below our office.


Damn shiok, could finally let our hair down after a crazy day of work.

It's not bad and worth a try - AltPizza, located in between Suntec Tower 3 & 4

You are escaping one last time...one last time. You live inside your mind.

Wed

Was feeling really guilty for not training for my run at all so decided to go for a jog at prp.

I barely ran 600m and then it started raining crazily.

Ran a few kms in the rain before I had to stop cause there was lightning.

So ya, looks like laziness got the better of me again. I really want to run regularly but I'm always so lazy and full of BS.


Entire shirt was soaked. And I had no choice but to take shelter at one of the park's toilets.


Ended up being stranded for a good 40 mins so I just sat down next to this auntie who was taking shelter too and almost fell asleep. #hobo4lyf

Fri

Met up with PZ to pass her some stuff and chilllllllllllllll for awhile.


Symmetry. Waiting for her to get down from her house.

Went to grab drinks from the supermarket before we headed to the playground. Had to leave cause there were kids so we ended up walking to Pasir Ris Park instead.


At the breakwater. Had to use nail clippers to remove the caps cause we didn't have a bottle opener. This lady is strong man, she made it seem so easy when I struggled so hard tryna open them. (or maybe I'm too weak)



Thanks for the short meet-up ♥ :)

Sat

Had lunch with the fam at To-gather cafe + dessert at IScream.

As usual, my eldest sis pangseh-ed us again zzz


My 老爸


Seriously got to lighten those eye-bags sigh..


Rum & raisin


Mango bingsu which taste good but idk why they put the marshmallows, not complimentary to the other components of the dish at all. Do I sound like a food critic?????



My 老妈 tryna be cute

Totally slipped my mind to bring WT's envelope so I had to ask my dad to drive us back home so I could get it before making my way to Dhoby to meet up with the og girls.


FOOD. From Nana's Green Tea.

Had a good catch-up with them :) Seems like ages since we had orientation together, feeling so old????


Cross road also must take selfie




Bro


Was so full but this looked too good to resist


Annoyed faces cause too many selfies


Fattening but fun night :)

Reached home close to midnight, thinking to myself how was I supposed to wake up at 4.30am the next morning.

Sun

"Slept" for 3 hours before having to get out of bed. Toughest thing I've done lately since I'm always sleeping at 4am and waking up at 1pm HAHAH yes I'm a total pig.


Showered + ate breakfast + jammed contacts into eyes + got ready all under 40 mins, what an achievement.

Took the first train(which was supposed to be at Pasir Ris at 5.28am) at around 5.50am to Promenade to meet up with my aunt and her friend. Was super late for the race hahahaha can't blame us though, SMRT, I have lost faith in you again.


By the time that we'd reached the starting point at the F1 Pit Building, flag-off had already begun and it was 15 mins into the race.

Anyway, I'm just glad that I completed it since I'd neglected training for it. I have to stop doing that man it's like I'm wasting my $$$ on races which I didn't train for. Didn't prepare for Marina Run and then now Run 350.

I, Melissa Lye, promise to commit myself to running regularly from this point onwards or else...


12000+ people ran to pledge to reduce their carbon footprints. I'm already trying to do so by walking to my grandma's house(in the past, I was always taking the bus) although my reason for walking is a more pragmatic one... trying to save on the $1 plus bus fare HAHA.(I still hate you, adult fare.)


Uniformity. One of the prettiest piles of rubbish I've ever seen.

Why don't we open up sometime? Sell me that gold in your veins.

I'm deadbeat. From doing nothing. Have been decomposing at home for the past 2 weeks.

Sigh...sometimes I wonder what if I wasn't born last instead. How much better would that be? Lots of people would probably disagree with me though. "Are you kidding? The last kid always gets it good."

Let me clarify, the answer is NO. I have two elder sisters, and don't get me wrong, I love them and look up to them really much. All my life, since I was able to walk and speak, I have treated them as my role models.

I was closer to my 2nd sister, probably due to the smaller age gap(6 years is still a lot), and we would spend time 'pillow-talking', playing games(esp. Neopets), collecting seashells on the beach when our Dad brought us there, passing notes filled with tic tac toe drawings when we were supposed to be studying at the table etc.

My mum would always tell me, "你看，你的两个姐姐那么聪明。你长大后，一定要学她们一样聪明。" And I can still vividly recall accompanying my second eldest sister with my mum to collect her PSLE results at EPPS. I was still thinking in my mind, 'Wow! My sister did so well, and I'm gonna be Pri 1 next year in the same school that both my sisters went to. I wanna be like them!'

Both of them went on to AHS, TJC and then NBS.

You know where I ended up.

I felt so sad whenever anything to do with results popped up, cause I'll always be in the shadows of my two sisters. But I had to put on a brave front, acting like I was oblivious to the fact so that I'll end up being less vulnerable in the eyes of the people around me.

Whenever I collected my exam results, my parents would always scold me, but that wasn't the worst. The worst part was that deep down, I knew they were disappointed, but they were just using their anger to mask it all up. And that made me feel terrible.

Guilt would be eating my insides up as days went by. This went on until probably my upper sec years, where a part of me just kept reminding myself, "You'll never be as good as them, so why try?" And thus began my downhill journey. I detested A maths and Chem so, so much. Hah, I didn't even bother practising A maths cause I knew I would flunk the tests and exams. Ms. Faten deliberately made me stay back after one of her classes to talk to me alone. Or was she berating me? I don't know, but her words were something like that: "Melissa, I realised you have stopped trying to accomplish anything in my class. I don't know what is happening but you better do something. If you find my lessons not suited for you, you can stop attending them."

Her harsh words stung me. I wasn't sure what I was feeling at that moment, probably a mixture of disbelief, confusion as well as hurt. It was true that I did neglect A maths, but I really worked my ass off for E maths, really. And I tried time after time doing A math questions but I just couldn't master them. But I'm glad she spoke those words to me, because they gave me a sharp jolt, and a reminder of what I had aspired to achieve years ago when I was a kid. I even made a big decision to drop geography(one of my fav subjects, damn, I miss drawing all those diagrams of oxbow lakes, plate tectonics etc.) and convert my pure history into elective so that I could cope better.

And so I did give it another shot, but still got mediocre results.

Fast forward to now, I've graduated from college and in the midst of transitioning to uni life.

A few weeks before I collected my A level results, my Dad kept hinting to me about Australian universities, and I felt so frustrated but I couldn't blame him. Even I myself had little faith in being able to qualify for local Us. I have never been so shaken and worried in my entire life. That looming feeling of collecting that slip of paper made me lose sleep up till the actual day.

My parents were...relieved I guess? After I shared my results with them. What's there to celebrate about right HAHAHH, our first two daughters also did well, if not, better. That was probably what ran through their minds.

But y'know what? I don't care anymore. I can't believe after years of feeling inferior, I'm finally liberated.

What if I was the firstborn? I wouldn't have to worry so much about such stuff, cause there'll be no bars set, there'll be no expectations to be met. Whatever my subsequent younger siblings achieved wouldn't affect me at all.

So ya, stop trying to tell me that I'm so lucky to be the youngest kid. Cause even though I'd led a fulfilling childhood & teenhood, I was constantly reminded by myself that I pale in comparison to others.